| for the first time in all my life, I just have nothing to say. I have had nothing to say. for a while now, actually. I also have no had any computer access for a long long time, but...I still have nothing to say. Nothing funny, nothing deep, just, well, nothing. except that maybe I need to love Jesus more. and that it pains me that so many want to make a religion of their own design, a belief system that fits what they would like life to be, and death as well, sort of like the movie, what dreams may come...The message of the gospel is so simple. We tend to want something complicated. it makes us feel better, like we are somehow in control, like knowing the numerology of the Old Testament was the purpose of why it was written, not to know the personal God who reached out of eternity into time to save my fragile and sinful soul. I am having a crisis of faith. Not because I don't believe what I know to be true, but because I don't understand why we all don't see it, or get it, and why when we do, we most often don't live it like we should. It's a good crisis of faith, but it's long too. time to go. see anyone who is still around in 6 months, unless I really see you by then, you know? you just never know. |
